Its good to knoe.

Currently, bukak fb my exboyfie. :) Its really good to see that dia happy balek. With new girl i guess. Kadang2 i've been thinking, maybe Allah create him, not for me and sebaliknye. Maybe for someone else. I dont even knoe ape perasaan yg ade skang. Am i sad? Am i happy..?? One thing for sure, i felt both. Gile na lupe kejap je relation yg da almost 5 years. :

Tappa la. I just wish that if he having something special with that girl, bia la that girl care more bout him. More than i did befoe. Not playfull or ta puas enjoy like me. Which is something that he dont like and he tod that i'll not change even we get marry. *But, manusia berubah. :) Just bear in mind, she still YOUNG. Mebi lebih ta puas enjoy more than me kot. But, im not saying that i'm good enuff. Maybe she much much better than me. Who knoes kan? :) I'm always pray for his happiness. As i said before n something that u agree with me, if ada JODOH, bia la berpisah jauh or selama mane pon, tetap besama jugak. Mungkin ini yg telah ditakdirkan utk kita lalui skang.

Sometimes, i wish he knoe that not just only him yg felt hurt. Deep inside, i do feel da same way to.. Aku lebey sensitif kot. *Im not keras hati like u said. I have to be firm with my decision. Dare to take a risk with any decision that i make.

Esok, i'll attend my another exboyfie mase skolah dulunye wedd reception. And my another exboyfie, dah tunang kot. Mereka bahagia. :) Aku tumpang happy. While me...dah ada kat track yg betol.. tapi kenapa end up like this? : Sedangkan jalan bahagia tu sangat dekat dengan aku. Aku tak salahkan takdir. Ada sebab kenapa jalan hidup ni tertulis macam ni. Aku redha. Allah Maha Adil dan Maha Mengetahui..

Hidup harus diteruskan. Yang pasti, segala memori indah dan barang2 akan tetap jadi kenangan yang terindah dalam hidup ni. *Entah kenapa skng ase cam nak nanges.

Sekadar makluman : *Awak, sy tak pernah nak berlaku kejam dengan keputusan yg kita amek same2 ni. Dan sy jugak rasa ape yg awak rasa. Segala perkara buruk tentang sy yg awak ckp, sy terima eventho sy ta reveal kesalahan2 dan juga kesilapan yg awak buat. Sbb sy tanak buat awak rasa janggal dengan sy (sbb sy terima kekurangan yg ada) Kesilapan2 sy yg telah awak senaraikan dan perubahan yg awak mintak sy buat, sy tak mampu lakukan dengan sekelip mata. Sy manusia biasa kot. Bukan Malaikat. :) Dan tuduhan2 seperti ada lelaki lain, sy ase penat bila dituduh begitu. N asenye, baik sy buat je kan? Alang2 da kena tuduh.. Humm. : And one more thing, ati ni ase tawar sgt bile awak kata sy ni takkan berubah even dah kawen pon n ur trust towards me is not 100% anymore. AWAK DA TAK TRUST SY LANGSUNG... camni ke yg awak hope relation kite sampai kawen? Marriage is based on trust... Humm. And lagi satu, bukan tanak jumpe or text or call awak. Sy tanak bagi harapan kat awak sbb sy tau sy hanye akan wat awak terluka. Kan? Buatla keputusan yang terbaik untuk hidup kite. Baik awak, maupun sy. :)

Life must go on..... :)